Musings of a Basket Case

Today is six months of being 'clean and serene.'

Tomorrow is Easter Sunday.

Yesterday was 'eye cyst removal.'

And the preceding week? Just eventful.

Everything has been happening so fast. In the last month, a relationship has come and gone and another one has been proposed.

I've seen death and touched it.

I've been kicked out and cursed. Called a string of names that are really quite unpleasant, too much so to list.

I've been blackmailed, insulted, propositioned, and tempted.

My head feels like it's about to explode. I've no idea if these migraines are because of stress or something a tad more explainable...or sinister.

I worry about my health, the health of my family, and the mental stability of my friends and loved ones.

Everyone's facing adversity. And it seems like all of them are coming to me. I love being there for them, but I've got things to deal with as well. And I just feel like I can't take anymore.

I don't want their blood on my hands, so I make sure they're alright.

It's just...difficult. It's all difficult.

But it's growth through experience. And I'm getting it ten-fold.

*sigh*

Apologies for the rant.

I just made my first animated icon. Personally, I find it riotous.

I mean, come on! Talk about fire crotch! *slaps knee*


*sigh*

Give a girl a break. I haven't slept in two days.


In other news, all is well on my end. I spent the week immersed in both busy work and theatre!

My classes are giving me migraines this semester. BUT! There is a bright side. On Tuesday, I went with my mum to see the Phantom of the Opera. It was her birthday present from me. I took her out to a fancy restaurant beforehand and I rather think she enjoyed it. She cried in the opening number. It was so sweet.

Then on Wednesday, I went to see The Tempest. It was a brilliant interpretation, if you ask me. They had people flying through the air, sand and petals falling from the ceiling, and quite a good light show. For a small theatre in the round, that's all quite a feat.

This weekend, I'm going to attempt to see another play: Misalliance. If I do, it will sum my week up nicely.

My first time venturing into the real world since I got sick last month. Ugh, I need to grow an immune system. Or rent one out. I mean, come on! Four weeks sick? That's just silly.

In other news, I'm starting to get the jitters about the smut fest I joined. I really hope my recipient likes what I wrote. It would kill me if she/he despised it. You can never really go wrong with Harry Potter smex, but somehow I feel like I won't meet his/her expectations. *le sigh*